hey, world. i feel like talking crap now. coz i feel like a shit. irritated. depressed, i guess...
the weekends were like my normal days, apart from last Friday when my brother had his birthday party. Mei's family and Marie's family came, Joy's family was supposed to come but they didn't. had my most painful day of my life, but Jag made it feel better. (:

Saturday, had accounts in school, then splurged on The Vampire Diaries movie marathon. finished until episode 17. then went online and talked to Jag. well it wasn't really talking. more like both just went online and did our own things. since he was watching some show, i did my own things instead. though a bit of talking here and there...

Sunday feels shit. supposed to go for mass in the morning but we didn't. didn't get to see Jag before he comes back to camp, which made me feel more shitty.

Insecurity

Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving of oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner).

A person who is insecure lacks confidence in their own value and capability, lacks trust in themselves or others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary and will let them down and cause them loss or distress by "going wrong" in the future.

i guess that's what i'm feeling now...

Urgh. Goodbye, sucka.


It's a random thing, babe. So talk shit.