Wednesday, September 30, 2009 -{'4:14 AM
CLOUD NINE, BABY. ♥
[u] belong with [me].
[u] belong with [me].
had MLB Orals last Monday and SHIT. it was so damn hard. and Monday's my N-levels (double shit).
&& yesterday (Tuesday) we had captain's ball. WHOLE CLASS. half the class versus the other half the class. two netball balls. awesomeness. one of the best days ever.
anyway today was a fun day, although we didn't get the free-curriculum mornings... went to school early for Geography lessons. didn't go for the school assembly n after school my Geog teacher ordered pizza during tutorials (how sweet).
lol.
and i won tic-tac-toe games against Ashling. lol. got bored during the Geog class and decided to play tic-tac-toe against Ash. and Ash against Thivya.
lol and we were kind of "making fun" of Zoey. "Do you want to be Zoey's wife? Do you want to be Zoey's wife?" HAHA
admit it, that was funny crap. lol.
xoxo,
Friday, September 25, 2009 -{'5:22 AM
LOVING IT. ♥
it just keeps getting better.
anyway here's a grad pic i had during the ceremony ... i'm trying to get everyone to tag EVERY picture (hehe) in Facebook.
before.
lol. candid.
candid shot. again.
Joy n me. sad that i already gave back my gad gown (the blue one). xoxo,
ASHLING, YOU LOOK LIKE A HOLLYWOOD STAR, OKAY?!?! I'M NOT KIDDING. SO DON'T SAY THAT YOU LOOK WIERD IN THAT DRESS. lol and my mom said that you look like a doll. :PP.S. how did your mom knew who my mom was?
xoxo,
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 -{'4:50 AM
LIFELESS. ♥
I'd rather choose death over life.
I'd rather choose death over life.
the past can hurt. but you can either run from it or learn from it.
now i don't know what to do. first my friends, now the only one who makes me smile is gone. i feel so lifeless these days... i don't have anyone to talk things out - literally. and talking to a lifeless dog like Jeffrey wouldn't even solve my problems... even Jeffrey's ignoring me, and ignorance is killing me from the inside. i can't take this any longer. this is killing me...
i've never - ever - been so miserable in my entire life. i just want everything back to the way it was. i know that i was confused that time, but i wouldn't even accept it at the first place if i don't feel the same way like you do. i've made my decision, and you know it. i felt that the whole world was against me, and i thought that you were against me, too.
so this is my life. and i want you to know that i'm both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how could that be.
after all, life's too short to be anything but happy. life doesn't hurt until you think about, how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
Happy Birthday, okay?
please just talk to me now...
this is killing me. literally.
please just talk to me now...
this is killing me. literally.
she doesn't care if you call and wake her up in the middle of the night just to talk.
she hates to argue but is good at it.
scary movies make her paranoid.
she envies every cute couple.
she doesn't judge.
she loves to draw little hearts on her notes.
all she wants is to be happy.
and lately all she can think about is you.
you mean more to her than you know.
she has so much faith, so don't ever let go...
she hates to argue but is good at it.
scary movies make her paranoid.
she envies every cute couple.
she doesn't judge.
she loves to draw little hearts on her notes.
all she wants is to be happy.
and lately all she can think about is you.
you mean more to her than you know.
she has so much faith, so don't ever let go...
xoxo,
Sunday, September 20, 2009 -{'11:08 PM
LOST IN A FAIRYTALE. ♥
Please someone kill me now.
Please someone kill me now.
life is too short.
grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.
laugh when you can.
apologise when you should.
and let go of what you can't change.
love deeply and forgive quickly.
take chances. give everything and have no regrets.
life is too short to be unhappy.
you have to take the good and the bad.
smile when you're sad.
love what you got always
remember what you had.
always forgive and learn from your mistakes.
people change and things go wrong
but always remember, life goes on...
live the life you want to live.
be the person you want to remember.
make decisions, make mistakes.
if you fall, at least you tried...
when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.
life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past.
some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next...
i am strong, because i am weak.
i am beautiful, because i know my flaws.
i am a lover, because i'm a fighter.
i am fearless, because i have been afraid.
i am wise, because i have been foolish.
and i can laugh, because i've known sadness.
grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.
laugh when you can.
apologise when you should.
and let go of what you can't change.
love deeply and forgive quickly.
take chances. give everything and have no regrets.
life is too short to be unhappy.
you have to take the good and the bad.
smile when you're sad.
love what you got always
remember what you had.
always forgive and learn from your mistakes.
people change and things go wrong
but always remember, life goes on...
live the life you want to live.
be the person you want to remember.
make decisions, make mistakes.
if you fall, at least you tried...
when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.
life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past.
some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next...
i am strong, because i am weak.
i am beautiful, because i know my flaws.
i am a lover, because i'm a fighter.
i am fearless, because i have been afraid.
i am wise, because i have been foolish.
and i can laugh, because i've known sadness.
i just picked out a few quotes from photobucket. i can't say that my week went on smoothly, coz i've never been so miserable in my entire life. i don't know where i've done wrong. i don't know what to do. i feel like crying 'till i shed blood instead of tears. i deserve this for i have failed to noticed it. i deserve this for i am not worthy of anything. if i could just turn back the time and fix everything up. but now i just don't know what to do. i feel like the whole world's turning its back on me...
life's full of challenges, so maybe i'm facing the biggest challenge of my life. maybe i can't change back things that are already there. maybe i can't bring back smiles to their faces. maybe i can't bring back the life how it is supposed to be. i might as well end my life story at this very second.
right now i'm not thinking of my exams, right now i'm thinking of how to put things back to the way it was. i just wanna talk things out and find out what exactly i have done.
xoxo,
Friday, September 18, 2009 -{'11:05 PM
WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES. ♥
It already did.
HAHA. yesterday went to Marie's house to learn Amaths from Anthony and Dean went there to pass something to tita Mila. yep. he cut his hair. i think it's nice. lol. Dean left early. anyway ... Thanks to Marie. i got the pictures from her blog.
HAHA JUST LOOK AT THE GUYS' FACE! ESPECIALLY DEAN'S!!! LOL!
HELP. HAHA LOL.
LOL. SOMEONE'S MISSING.
LOL.
LOL X2.
HAHA.
MARIE EYES WIDE.
LOL.
LOL LOL.
HAHA.
SOMEONE'S MISSING. AGAIN.xoxo,
Thursday, September 17, 2009 -{'11:56 PM
DEADLINE IS OVER. ♥
If that's what it is.
i just reached home from school, later i'm gonna go to Marie's place...
i got this contacts (Ashling, it's HAZEL. not green.) last Wednesday ... my degree for both eyes went up again ... i got this and my specs fixed.
anyway went out with Marie yesterday (Thursday) and i got myself a black scarf & i lovelovelove it. eventhough i hate putting tight things around my neck.<3
today's friday. had my amaths test (oh, crap.) and FINALLY, it's over. after all those misunderstandings, it finally ended... Thank God. (:
kk i'm gonna prepare now for the visit ... Chao!
xoxo,
Saturday, September 12, 2009 -{'9:07 PM
THE SWEETEST ESCAPE. ♥
If that's what you call it.
last Friday i went to school for Emaths tutorial and i realized something ... MY SECOND EMATH PRELIM IS ON TUESDAY!!! shit.
and then my
the next day was a study day with Anthony, Joy and Dean. (they remind me of my band in
agh, around two more days until Emath prelim ... my prelim results will determine my N level grade coz we can't take the O-level results to put in our N level cert. awww shit. i'm dead.
Agh, i can't open my facebook profile again! facebook sucks now. agh.
JoyJoy. loveyousomuch,girl! ♥kk i'm gonna post some pictures i had with my cousin ... i also wanna post a video of my cousin and i but it's in my phone ... so i can't post it. yet. agh.
Esplanade.
Esplanade. again.
STILL Esplanade. my cousin attempted to take a picture of me with the crowd ... i guess she didn't know that the camera was on Fireworks mode. lol.xoxo,
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 -{'6:55 PM
WHO KNEW. ♥
now that i'm exam-free...
haha this pictures (taken from different events) are so damn familiar. lol.Monday ...
went to Anthony's house to collect Social Studies textbooks (supposed to go Joy's house after) but we stayed at Ant's house instead. Joy came with her POA notes.
Tuesday ...
my freaking Social Studies paper.
Wednesday ...
English papers ... and then after that met up with Ant to study at the library, but the library was freaking - and i mean FREAKING - full. lol. then met up with Joy outside the library and went to Terminal 2 instead coz trust me, the library was so effing full.
then we went to the airport in MacD's to study (lol) and then went to Starbucks.
it's quite an unusual thing, because after eating at MacD's, we went to Starbucks to eat. lol. i regret not bringing my camera along. sorry. no pictures, people.
then stayed there until 7.30pm... Joy took bus 27 and then Ant and i took bus 34... i reached home at (wait i forgot) 8.30pm and bathed and then slept. was having a massive headache when i got home.
xoxo,
Friday, September 4, 2009 -{'1:35 AM
OH, PLEASE. ♥
I'm toast.
I'm toast.
hey, y'know what? i'm kinda speechless now ... but just before i go back to studying (urgh,) i wanna tell everyone that ...
I, BEA YSABELLE, PLEDGE TO MYSELF THAT I BELIEVE THAT I CAN PASS MY N-LEVELS ... EVERYONE BELIEVES IN ME AND I DON'T WANNA LET THEM DOWN.
owh gosh ... someone forced me to write that down ...
Cheerio ~~~
xoxo,
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 -{'3:01 AM
N-LEVEL STRESS. ♥
This is what you get.
can someone knock me on the head now and make me realize that almost everyone i know believe that i can pass my N-Levels ?!?!
anyway i'll just post some pictures from Marie's partay. we DID cam-whored, but it was a little too late. lol. sorry i can't write a long post now, i'm currently studying Social Studies.
anyway here's the pictures ... and hey, if you guys (i'm talking to the crazy people in the pictures) if you don't want a pic below to be posted, just lemme know, ayt? xoxo,
P.S. other people who either went off early or wasn't in any photos were Mei & Dean. plz tell me if i forgot to mention someone kaythanksbye.
Marie smiling for the camera.
Marie and Inah smiling for the camera.
Marie STILL SMILING from the camera, while taking a candid pic of JoyJoy and TokSomBong.
Marie. enough said.
Marie's FIRST candid pic. without her smiling.
a snapshot with Gericho, Cheska and Inah (from left to right).
Grace and me.
a little bit of Gericho, Cheska, Inah and me.Cheerio ~~~
xoxo,
