now i don't know what to do. first my friends, now the only one who makes me smile is gone. i feel so lifeless these days... i don't have anyone to talk things out - literally. and talking to a lifeless dog like Jeffrey wouldn't even solve my problems... even Jeffrey's ignoring me, and ignorance is killing me from the inside. i can't take this any longer. this is killing me...

i've never - ever - been so miserable in my entire life. i just want everything back to the way it was. i know that i was confused that time, but i wouldn't even accept it at the first place if i don't feel the same way like you do. i've made my decision, and you know it. i felt that the whole world was against me, and i thought that you were against me, too.

so this is my life. and i want you to know that i'm both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how could that be.

after all, life's too short to be anything but happy. life doesn't hurt until you think about, how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.





It's a random thing, babe. So talk shit.