guys, WHERE'S THE LOVE?!?!

ok, i won't say that this was the greatest friend-gathering party. i also won't say that the party was ruined. actually, it was great. alot of visitors came...

i won't say that i felt miserable on that day... you know me, i'm the type of person who doesn't get angry with people, & you also know that i don't want to get into fights and misunderstandings...

ok, let's just say that i felt like i wasn't there, like everyone was there (i meant literally everyone) and it's like you don't exist. call it whatever you want...
& i also thought that technology brings people further apart. (urgh, this i don't know how to explain.)

argh, I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN!!!

i think i wont post it here. better not to.
to those who know what i'm typing here, i'm sorry if i feel like this. that's just what i felt during that time. please don't take it to the heart, because i am also confused myself.
argh, i dont know alr.

i wanna cry... but i thought to myself that crying won't help getting rid of the problem... i just felt emo, felt stabbing myself, felt like i have no purpose in this fast developing world. i feel like i'm probably the dork-iest of the dorks.

& i had a few imagination, like eventually i won't update my blog anymore, or like i'll sit in one corner of my room and cry everyday, or like stare at thin air, stoning. i don't even pity myself. luckily people can't read my thoughts, because i get so emotional with these things.

&& i admit, i am a cry baby. i cry alot. so i'm expecting myself to cry over this thing.

blood, i feel blood. flushing red with blood flowing through my cheeks. and i thought of myself crying with blood as tears.

Tara, sorry if this isn't a good blog post. 'coz i think you're expecting a good one... i'm sorry.

P.S. Tara says hi to everyone. ^^